"Such love has no fear, because perfect love expels all fear. If we are afraid, it is for fear of punishment, and this shows that we have not fully experienced his perfect love." 1 John 4:18

     Some days I get up and have a full conversation with God. I read scripture and hear his praise songs. Then I have those days where the world just sucks me up and before I know it I am out cold in bed with not even a prayer of goodnight said. When that happens, I can't help but to feel guilty the following day. Scared that God is looking down at me upset or disappointed. I feel like I am about to be scolded for doing something awful. Before I know it, I find myself trying to avoid God afraid of the fact that he may be mad at me. My body gets wrapped up in that thick cloud of guilt and instead of facing him and admitting my faults, I run from him.


   By no means am I proud to admit that I basically forget to give the one who is responsible for my very existence, his praise and acknowledgement daily. I try so hard to be on top of it because I believe in him and I know that nothing in my life would be if it were not for him! But, what is more alarming to me is, how can I even feel what I have just described to you. I may not be the only one to behave that way either. I do, however, want to be the one to say........cut that out! Yes, said very clearly! Cut it out! Stop feeling guilty for being HUMAN! God knows our weaknesses. He has said it time and time again. He will never be angry at us. He will only ever be angry at our sins and disobedience. Accidents happen and we are not perfect. Just like any other relationship in life, a relationship with God takes commitment as well as work! We need to stop fearing God when we mess up or stop "hiding" from him when we do wrong. He is our Father and, just like any other parent, he will never stop loving us.


   I struggle every day with being too hard on myself. My brain over thinks every situation and over analyzes every problem or mistake I make. I am probably harder on myself than God will ever be on me. Isn't that the most beautiful thing!? He will always accept you and love you for you! Flaws and sins will not change that! With this being said, my challenge for you is to have a conversation with God every morning. In the conversation, tell him one thing you think you have to change about yourself and acknowledge 3 things that you are proud of when it comes to you!

Many blessings your way,

Victoria♡

Journey to Find Me.

   They say that at a certain time or age you should already know who you are or what you want in life.
Sometimes it feels as though I am behind a tad bit. Although I know what I want with my life most of the time, I feel as though something is missing.

 Let me get started by saying that I am your average person with a full time job, kids (one 4 year old and another on the way), and an over grown child-husband (lol). See, with all of those factors in my life, I have zero time to find me or my peace. I lack time to grow spiritually and that may be the reason why sometimes I just feel like nomatter how great my life is, I have to still pick up my own pieces at the end of every day. After gathering my own pieces, I still feel incomplete, exhausted,and overwhelmed.

 I want to write about my struggles in comparison with the text of the bible. As I grow spiritually, I would like to share it with others who might be able to relate. I challenge you to find your peace as well and grow with me spiritually. Feel free to share your experiences with me as well!